Saturday, March 20, 2010

Scattered

Do you ever have those days, weeks, months where you're just scattered? So many things to be done, in so many different directions? Of course you have. We all have. That's where I've been the last couple of months. Scattered.

It seems like there is so much to do, but very little I can do about it. Life in limbo. Life on hold. Hurry up and wait. I'm not unhappy. But I can't seem to settle in to doing one particular thing. I'll start somthing, then within 10 minutes, get up to move on to something else. I'm unsettled.

I think it means I need to sit down and listen. Something is working its way up through the quagmire of my head. It's like the sludge of, of I don't know what?

Okay, it's like I'm all dressed up and nowhere to go. All of the preparations for selling two houses that goes on everyday, and no phone calls from realtors. That's it. I'm so busy looking forward that I'm missing today. I can't make a mess anywhere, and let's face it, getting creative makes a mess.

I'll try making a mess, I mean, getting creative out in the building on wheels maybe. Nobody sees inside there but us. It's a pretty small space, but I've got to do something or I'll clean the house to death!

11 comments:

Steven Anthony said...

boy do I understand this...I feel like Im always waiting...waiting for the house to sell, to move, to get on with it....and in the mean time, like you I feel like Im living in the house but not actually living in it...ya know...like being in a show room.....arggg now Im rambling....

Pam said...

Trying to sell a house is so stressful.

shabby girl said...

Steven! I know you understand! Most all of us have gone through it, or will go through it. When I said I could do something for 10 minutes, that was an exaggeration! Five minutes is more like it. I think we have an offer on the smaller house. That will be a huge blessing. I know things happen in His time. But my fingers are crossed! My house selling wishes are winging their way to you as well!

shabby girl said...

Pam, Hubby grew up moving every year; sometimes more often. You're right. So stressful. I need to take a relaxation lesson from Smudge!

Sarah Lulu said...

Hahaha don't be cleaning the house to death!

You are in a transitional phase like me ..in some ways.

So hard to stay in the day and follow your bliss at the same time.

shabby girl said...

Oh Sara, you are so right! It helps to know that others are struggling with this too.

Transitional. Well said!

DawnTreader said...

I can relate to that feeling... Waiting to get this or that out of the way before being able to start properly with whatever... and the frustration of not actually being able to hurry things up... We do spend an awful lot of our lives just "waiting" actually...

GB said...

I can relate to how you feel without having to sell a house! The term scattered just fits the bill perfectly. I've felt really unsettled recently and I don't have your excuse. C'est la vie.

septembermom said...

That does sound overwhelming at times. I'm sure you'll get it all done. I'm sending positive vibes your way and some hugs too!

{Simply} Heather T. said...

Need you ask this question about me? I don't think so...you know, you know me without knowing me :)

Praying that you'll find that quiet place, hear that whisper of love to calm the scatters. Oh, how I know ♥

Cynthia L. H. said...

Oh, yes. It's what I do.
;^-
I really do try to live in the moment, but starting over from "scratch" and going back to college so that I can do more, be more, etc... Some days, I end up thinking, I'm missing out on the NOW! But I remind myself of all of the pros and cons, and then I get re-focused.
It will all turn out alright!!!

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